Like bad weather, do you have some circumstances in your life that seem beyond your control?
I know what that feels like.
Taken by themselves, the circumstances at my birth which led to my speech challenge and movement differences were pretty neutral.
But like buying vowels on the Wheel of Fortune, I realize now that I used my mind to add immeasurably to my natural impediments.
For many years, I added on the impediment of invisibility, the impediment of serious self-doubt and self-criticism, the impediment of worry and high anxiety, not to mention the impediment of guilt, shame and denial about my “disability.” (These are not the kind of add-ons you want.) By adding mental complications to my natural ones, I created what you might call a tangled, thorny mess.
Much of my healing over the last seven years has come from using different techniques to untangle this bramble. Some of the techniques, like yoga, have been around for thousands of years. Other techniques I invented as I went along because I love creating ways that promote healing.
The irony is as I untangled this confusion in my life, how I understood the circumstances that seemed beyond my control totally changed. My speech and coordination, which I once considered a shameful physical disability, now seem like one of the most profound gifts I have ever been given.
What circumstances in your life seem beyond your control? What mental complications might you be adding to these circumstances? What techniques can you use in your untangling process? What is you next step?
If you are looking for a guide in this process, please contact me. I would love to hear from you.
(Photo: I took this in August 2014 as I was traveling through the California desert at sunset)